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Have you ever walked into a room and tried to turn on the light, only to realize that it was already on?

I need more sleep.

Anyway, I took this picture in St. Croix (U.S. Virgin Islands) last summer, and it pretty much sums up my outlook on life.

Enjoy.

Of wasting time and letting go.

I think there was something I wanted to rant about earlier today, but I don't remember what it was so it must not have been all that important.

I've been wasting alot of time lately. And by wasting time I mean not doing anything particularly productive. Watching movies instead of doing my homework, for example. Here's another one: posting on blogger when I should be studying for my test tomorrow. I don't know why I have a sudden desire to not do my homework. I've been doing really well so far this year. Hopefully I'll pick back up soon. I don't like feeling like I still have things to do.

As for the second part of my title, I think I only put it there because I just listened to "Let Go" by Frou Frou (excellent song, if you haven't heard it) and it's now stuck in my head. Not that I'm complaining, mind.

And now, to completely change tacks and possibly confuse you:

I got a message from an old friend on myspace today. I think the last time we talked was ninth grade, and we're now seniors in high school. I see her everyday on my way to fourth period, and she said that she sees me in the halls sometimes, and we never say hi to one another. We don't really even acknowledge each other. It's actually really sad, because in elementary school we were inseperable. We met on the first day of school in fourth grade, and halfway through the class our teacher threatened to seperate us because we were talking so much. We started drifting slowly around 8th grade, and by the end of ninth we had stopped talking all together. And today she sent me a message, asking me how I was doing.

I've only drifted with two other friends. One was no fault of my own. I said hi to her on the first day of ninth grade, and I guess somewhere in between middle school and high school she got to be too cool for me, because gave a fake smile and kept walking. The other nearly tore me apart, but it's been mended and is not something to go into now.

I guess all I really have to say is that this is what I expected to happen when I started high school. I didn't really know it at first, but I've learned now that sometimes no matter how hard you try you just can't hold on anymore.

(This is beginning to tie in with my title more than I thought it would.)

I'm starting to mentally prepare myself to be separated from these people in nine months when we all graduate and start making our way to college. It will take a natural disaster to separate me from some of these people, and others I don't have a hard time imagining myself rarely seeing them again, if not ever again.

But that's nine months from now, which means nine more months of each other's company, so why not make the most of it?

End.

I need a life.

I got a blogspot because my cousin said I should. Don't mistake this to mean that I do everything that anyone tells me to do, because I don't. Mostly I just can't resist signing up for anything that looks remotely interesting. Examples:

I've been on xanga.
I did livejournal for a little while.
I'm on myspace.

Now I'm on blogger. Hoorah!

So, I should be doing homework right now, but naturally I'm signing up for silly things like blogspot and thus furthering the exposure of my soul to the world.

But really, isn't that why the internet was invented?

...Don't answer that question.

Anyway, I'm feelin' good things happening in the future, so I"ll see y'all around. :)