I honestly have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I'm afraid of making any life-changing decisions because I worry that it might be the wrong one, but I'm also afraid of regretting anything I haven't done. There are so many things I want to do, all of which require resources which I don't currently possess, but I'm scared of breaking away from the path I'm currently following because this one at least has a foreseeable future.
I had a similar crisis this time last year, but I chalked it up then to the horrible living situation I had been dealing with since the previous October. My living situation right now is much better than it was last year, however, and there really isn't anything else going on in my life that might be causing me to question everything I've been doing for the past three years of my life.
I guess my main concern is that I don't want to settle. I feel like once I graduate, I'm going to start teaching, and that's going to be it. That's what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. Don't get me wrong, I love to teach, but I don't want the rest of my life to start when I'm 22. I don't really think I was made for a career. In my ideal reality, I would work a myriad of jobs. I would try out anything that interested me. I would go back to school and get more degrees just for the sake of learning more about topics which interested me.
What will probably end up happening is me staying right where I am and wondering what would have happened if I had just been a little more courageous.
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