Thursday, April 16, 2009

Numb

I think college has smothered all feelings out of me. Or at least my ability to feel anything. I haven't been happy in a long time. I don't like my major anymore. I'm even finding it hard to be passionate about music, which is the only thing I have ever really cared about. The only other thing I could really put on that list was writing, and I haven't done any of that since the beginning of freshman year.

Where has my passion gone? Why don't I care about anything anymore? I'm burned out, and have been for a while, but can that really be the reason for this numbness?

I want the old me back. I want me pre-college. Happy and carefree and eternally optimistic.
Where did that girl go?



On a different note, I took this picture from a plane a few years ago. It makes me think that maybe things will get better someday.

1 comment:

Tricia said...

it makes me sad that you feel like this! you are a very talented person and you have so many things going for you. i know that sounds cliche but it is very true!! have you considered taking a real break this summer? that might make you feel better. you can come visit me!! i'm always here if you want to talk <3